Confession

I’m sitting on my couch journaling and praying. The snow is falling outside. Christmas songs are playing quietly.

And I am repenting for my sin.

Thankfully it’s nothing that would make the evening news; but is nonetheless serious sin.

Here is my confession: I have denied and refused a specific of God’s will for a long time and am paying for it.

As background, I have a ministry. It’s also business, but at its core it is my ministry. I have had the ministry for many years, to teach Christian women about the Bible, about prayer, and about the sanctity and mystery and glory of God and the Kingdom of God. He has blessed me beyond measure by giving me this work to do.

So, what’s my sin?

Wait for it…

Here it is…

REFUSING TO REACH OUT TO THE PEOPLE GOD CALLED ME TO. Yep, marketing—or rather NOT marketing.

Doesn’t seem very godly, does it? But marketing IS godly if GOD told me to do it. He did and I refused.

GAH! How humiliating! Not the bold sins for me, but the creepy little ones. God gave me words of life, and I simply didn’t reach out because I didn’t feel like it.

Oh, I made my excuses. I’d reach out maybe once a week… or once a month. “I’ll do it tomorrow!” I hardly ever did.

So, imagine my sense of being a complete idiot when I prayed this morning and asked God why He wasn’t blessing my business more… well, maybe because HE TOLD ME EXACTLY HOW TO REACH OUT EVERY DAY, AND I WOULDN’T DO IT.

Please do not take this wrong! I’m not going to flood your inboxes. God forbid.

What I am going to do is reach out to as many new people every day as God wills. I’ll be bringing them back with me to this group, and filling it not only with people, but with Kingdom power and teaching AS GOD LEADS.